Musings of an Empress

… Over…It’s Wednesday, that means I am halfway through my week…may I just say that it couldn’t come quickly enough this week. I’m hormonal, I know that. I don’t enjoy that fact, but there it is and I can’t do anything about it. I am doing my best to not be bitchy, and really, how much more should people be allowed to expect??

Ok, so I realize that this is coming out of nowhere, or so it would seem…well one of the girls here at work is upset with me…like many things in life, it’s just a matter of perspective. Anyway, I have tried repeatedly to work this out with her; she refuses to speak to me. Which, I must say, makes for an interesting work environment. So, I am now at the point that I don’t care to expend any more effort. I have done all I can and now I have to sit back and wait for her to stop acting like a girl.

Have I mentioned that I miss working with all guys?? At least then, people said what they meant, there was no walking on eggshells, and if something did come to a head, you yell or fight it out and it’s over…done…live moves on.

Well at least I have fire cadets tonight…so I will get to hang with some of my favorite firefighter this evening…did I mention JD is working?? I haven’t seen him since he had ankle surgery at the beginning of the month. It will be good to see him…I miss the old days sometimes. Hehehe. Anyway, I haven’t talked to S in days and I’m hoping that he remembers all the things he’s supposed to have in order for tonight. Guess I should call and remind him…that’s what sisters are for, or so I hear.

Today, I am exhausted. I didn’t manage to fall asleep until 4 am. Needless to say, I am having a difficult time functioning well. I did however, have time to contemplate many things and I came to a few conclusions:

1. I hate wind…this also feeds into my hatred of mini-blinds. Ours caused massive drama in the house last night…we use open windows rather than the central air at night…last night however the wind started gusting in the middle of the night slamming blinds and doors all over the house. Scared the hell out of Grace, Jeanne and I. I’m not sure how Jean fared on the couch downstairs…she didn’t answered when we called…hopefully she slept through it all.

2. Being chemically unbalanced is not always all it’s cracked up to be. The not sleeping portion of the program has officially gotten old.

3. My roommates are fantastic people and I am definitely thankful for Grace. I am also going to miss having Jeanne around for the next week.

4. I spent part of the night worrying for friends and family in the South…familia, Joan, let me know ya’ll are ok.

5. Finally, Chuck Palahniuk is brilliant. His writing is genius. I finished reading Stranger Than Fiction last night.

I got some great comments in respect to the Lionel lyrics I posted last week. Here is another of his songs that connected to my spirit…this is the song that was playing in my car as I raced down an empty strech of the 5 one night after a fight with Clark when I first realized that I might not like it, but I was going to be ok on my own. It’s true, I have been…

Sail On ~ Lionel Ritchie

Sail on down the line,
’bout half a mile or so,
and I don’t really wanna know,
where you’re goin’
maybe once or twice you see
time after time I tried
hold on to what we got
but…now you’re going!

and I don’t mind about the things you’re
gonna say, lord
I gave all my money and my time
I know it’s a shame
but I’m giving you back your name
guess I’ll be on my way
I won’t be back to stay
I guess I’ll move along
I’m looking for a good time!

Sail on down the line
ain’t it funny how the time can go
all my friends say they told me so
but it doesn’t matter.
It was plain to see
that a small town boy like me
just a wasn’t your cup of tea:
I was wishful thinking!

I gave you my heart
and I tried to make you happy
and you gave me nothing in return
you know it ain’t so hard to say,
“would you please just go away”
I’ve thrown away the blues
I’m tired of being used
I want everyone to know
I’m looking for a good time, good time!

whoa, sail on, honey!
good times never felt so good!
sail on, honey!
good times never felt so good!
sail on, sugar!
good times never felt so good!
sail on!

Well, my head is markedly better today than it was Friday. The only good thing about Friday was that being home in the middle of the day allowed me a few extra minutes to hang out with the new roommate, Jeanne. We bonded over General Hospital and migraines. She is such a blessing to have in the house. It seems like everyday one of the three of us (Grace, Jeanne or myself) comments how much we all love living together. Really, I couldn’t ask for a better roommate situation.

Anyway, this weekend was busy…oh so busy…we made time however to venture on out to G’s bar. It was very low key and lots of fun…made better by the fact that G was completely surprised that we showed and even her roommates came out to play. A good time was had by all…(I even got called a Hawaiian hooker)
On Sunday, Grace and I were domestic…we baked cookies, we cleaned the kitchen, I did laundry, and we hung out with Jeanne and watched Gilmore Girls.

She’s leaving tomorrow for a week in Alaska…we’re gonna miss her around the house. So just a note to all the bears out there: Leave Jeanne alone! She doesn’t like you and has no desire to get to know you better. She is on vacation and would like to return to Cali (and our home) in one uneaten piece. Thank you.
Speaking of a different Jean, she is absolutely fantastic and is once again saving my arse. She is hooking up my internet and laptop as I type. She graciously offered to provide us with an Ethernet card, so that Trevor can talk to the DSL ish. Yes, we are moving into the 21st century like the normal people. Yay!!!

The only thing that is calming my brain right now is Lionel Ritchie. I love the man’s voice…Today I couldn’t decide between the Commodores years and the solo years so I made a compromise: The Greatest Hits! So the song of the moment is:

Say You, Say Me ~ Lionel Ritchie

Say you, say me
Say it for always
That’s the way it should be
Say you, say me
Say it together
Naturally!

I had a dream
I had an awesome dream
People in the park
Playing games in the dark
And what they played was a masquerade
From behind the walls of doubt
A voice was crying out!

Say you, say me
Say it for always
That’s the way it should be
Say you, say me
Say it together
Naturally

As we go down life’s lonesome highway
Seems the hardest thing to do
Is to find a friend or two
That helping hand
Someone who understands
When you feel you’ve lost your way
You’ve got some one there to say
I’ll show you,

Say you, say me
Say it for always
That’s the way it should be
Say you, say me
Say it together
Naturally!

So you think you know the answer
Oh, no
Well, the whole worlds got you dancing
That’s right I’m telling you
It’s time to start believing
Oh, yes
Believe in who you are
You are a shining star

Say you, say me
Say it for always
That’s the way it should be
Say you, say me
Say it together
Naturally!

Say it together
Naturally!

Migraines suck. Yep that is the official stance I’m taking with that issue. I have had raging migraine for the last 24 hours and it doesn’t appear to be lessening. I am at work for the time being, but that was mostly because I have a project I need to finish. I haven’t even picked up a case yet this morning. Instead I am currently editing a stubborn and tedious set of documents known as “Points and Authorities”. My boss asked me to help her with all the technical points of editing, so now my brain is struggling to keep up. I have three of the four done; but formatting has been a beast. I’m not sure I can even count how many different formats have been melded together. I realize that this is a boring subject, but at least ya’ll only have a paragraph or so of my rambling to contend with…I am editing page 97 right about now…

I am only working a half-day today as my head is steadily worsening as I sit and stare at a computer screen. There is a couch and a Fiorinol calling my name and I am more than happy to oblige.

The fabulous Miss Jean is providing yours truly with an Ethernet card so that I can join the modern world at home too; so I need to be clear headed to drive over and pick it up…I am determined that we will have DSL in our home before this weekend is up. Wish me luck
Hope ya’ll have a fabulous weekend!!!

Sigh…Reading the news has become tedious as every one says the same things. The MSM seems to be regurgitating the same few stories over the last week. I have many opinions of my own…but I currently lack the energy to turn any of them into comprehensible thoughts let alone something worth reading. So, instead I point you to some other fabulous people whose brain power appears to be in complete working order.
While I hate how much camera time Cindy Sheehan has been receiving, I do think the opposition needs to be heard. This issue is getting a lot of coverage around here as it’s centered virtually in my own back yard. Real, sincere troop support is a big deal in this area.

Check out what some of the others have to say.

Also, check out some of the soldier blogs around here. You might be surprised by what they think.

If you haven’t gotten around to it, Seven Inches of Sense is up and running again and all the Service posts are up. Good stuff.

That means my week is now half over. Woohoo!! Last night I did the make-up trial run for Jean’s wedding! Woohoo! It went well…I am Supreme Empress for Life for a reason…yes, I really am that fabulous! Ok I’m not but my brain is so overloaded that I am punchy…focusing has been a real challenge today. (Hence the serious lack of posting) Anyway, in the spirit of randomness, here is a fun song. Well, I think it’s fun anyway. Have a great night ya’ll and maybe I will write more tomorrow.

Better Class of Losers ~ Randy Travis

I’m getting out of this high-rise penthouse suite
Where we pretend life’s rosy and sweet
I’m going back to the folks that I used to know
Where everyone is what they seems to be

And these high-class friends that you like to hang around
When they look my way they’re always looking down
I’m tired of spending every dime I make
To finance this way of life I’ve learned to hate

(Chorus)
I’m going back to a better class of loser
This up-town living’s really got me down
I need friends who don’t pay their bills on home computers
And who buy their coffee beans already ground
You think it’s disgraceful that they drink three-dollar wine
But a better class of loser suits me fine

You say the grass is greener on the other side
From where I stand I can’t see grass at all
And the concrete and the steel won’t change the way you feel
It takes more than caviar to have a ball

(Repeat chorus)
You think it’s disgraceful that they drink three-dollar wine
But a better class of loser suits me fine

So, work is still frustrating the hell out of me. I am tired of being treated like a second class citizen…but whatever. Hopefully soon it will be their loss. I have just a few more changes on my resume and cover letter to get them ready to submit to CLRC (California Law Revision Commission) for an administrative assistant job. I love what I do, I’d just like to make a livable wage doing it. Is that really so much to ask??

Now for the happy stuff. (Yeah I actually have some today. Woohoo!!) I went home for lunch like I have done since I moved which is saving me so much money!! Can I tell you? I realize this seems like a given; but before I couldn’t go home for lunch and if I stay in the office I can’t get a moment’s peace. Now, I have an out!!

Anyway, the point of my story is that I gat to see Kat and baby A!!! I was so happy! I really miss her…we only see each other once or twice a year since she and hubby live so far away. But, her enlistment is up in three weeks and he is will put in for a transfer to a base in Cali. (He’s Air Force also) So maybe, just maybe, they will be back in California before too much longer. (As I typed that line, all that was going through my head was that scene from Win a Date With Tad Hamilton where Sean Hayes is dancing in the hallway singing: He’s goin’ back to Cali! He’s goin’ back to Cali!)

Baby A has got to be about the cutest little girl ever! I know I am very biased, but I’m allowed to be! I took a long lunch so that I actually had time to play with her and hand out. Mom, Dad, and Ogre came over also so it was like a whole reunion. Kat grew up in my family too, so they were all excited to see her and the baby. They fly back to Warren today though, so I am really glad I had the extra time with them.

I really do love kids…well, I like kids that aren’t monsters…that’s more truthful. Some days I really miss the daycare and all the little rug rats…